One more day and it will mark an end to 2010
Horrible year.
Pui

xD

No countdown party this year :(!
Will be spending QUALITY TIME doing research with my beloved lappy.
Struggling to complete my Financial Ecnonomics assignment
Just realised deadline is on 5Jan 2011 yesterday
Started work today 12am
Slept at 4am and woke up 1.30pm
Not even 50% done with it and there's CMSK report to do
CMSK report have to submit draft on 5Jan2011 too

LALALA DOOMED LIAO

Reading all the wordy finance reports to aid in my report is driving me nuts lalala



Have been thinking a lot these few days. Crazy thoughts came across my mind. I started to think why I wake up everyday after sleeping. I even wished that my heart would stop beating halfway through my sleep and never wake up. Life is too lonely for me this year. People who know me would know. Im always afraid of being alone. Im always alone in school. Poly life suck for me. Even teachers dont care about me. They just throw you an assignment and expect you to complete yourself. They dont tell you what they expect from the assignment. Only kept emphasing on some stupid plagiarism. My GPA for last sem was a 3.62. The last person who got into the top ten percent also got 3.62. And the person is not me. Oh fml. Suay.

Im trying very hard to squeeze into the top ten percent. I was never a person who liked to compete with ppl. As long as im not the last I will be satisfied. Now I want to beat my coursemate in results. I detest myself for this. But this is the only thing I can do to show to others that im not as useless as they think i am. Disgusted by their behaviour and im becoming one of them. Really am at a loss of what to do. It will be great if heaven can send someone to help me. Xiexie

I nearly puked when my course manager announced that everyone will be taking finance next year. Indirectly meant that I will be in the same class for the rest of the 2years and erm 4months. Pui. I really regret why I initially did not request for a change of class. Blame my stupidity.







Tonight dinner with mandy! :)