Everyone makes mistakes and we learn from our mistakes so that we won't do it again.

Recently I am so easily paranoid and at some point of time I feel like I'm mad. There is no one that I can really speak to. Some people have left my life and some are slowly leaving. Many are leaving my life but no one seems to be entering. Just like the money in my bank account. I met a person not too long ago about two months back and I thought that this person might be coming into my life very soon but he is leaving sg in less than a week's time. As for the rest, some of them are no longer the ones I knew. Maybe I have changed too.  I am only 19 gonna hit 20 this year and I already have not much to look forward to everyday fml.

Ok so now my chance of getting into a local u is so freaking slim and I cant get in because I'm too fat hahahaha so what do I want to do and what can I do??? I have some thinking in mind but whether I'm going to put that into reality I will decide when I am back from my Taiwan trip. There's too many uncertainties in life there might be an earthquake over there and I might not even return.


Can somehow foresee a tough journey ahead for me this year.

Its only the first day of 2013 and nothing is going smoothly for me. The first news I received was that my passport application was rejected. Wth?? Wanted to save that 10 bucks by applying through its online application but I ended up have to do more stuffs. Need to change my this 贪小便宜 habit.

Christmas and new year countdown was supposed to be a lovely and happier time for everyone. But I spent mine like no other normal days. No presents, no good food, no good company, no fun. Jaejoong's emo songs and MP accompanied me throughout this period. Maybe if I had different groupmates for MP I would have spent this period with them and we might become really close friends. But mine hahahhaha. Most probably we will never want to see each other again.

I know the importance of setting goals in life. And yes I do want to achieve something this year. But there isn't something that I really look forward to. I only know I want a better life. I want to live without having to worry about so many things. That is why I have been studying and working hard only to hope to get out of this pathetic life where I have to scrimp and save every single cent I have. Not that I'm obsessed with money. I only yearn for a better life and I know that is the only way. If only I have interest for something. I could have worked towards that direction and eventually earn big bucks and make my life more interesting. But all my interests are sleeping, watching dramas and sleeping again. None of which are useful in life ugh. So the only thing I know is to study hard and find a job that pays well in the future. Its not as if I have superb good looks or looks so stunning that can make rich men fall in love with me. If thats the case I can still hope to find a rich husband hahahahaha wth. So hmm, I will be applying for local uni in a week's time. The chance of getting in is freaking small but I'll still try. Considering that I can't get into a local uni, which is most likely the case:( I will be moving on to work. I hope to find a 9-6 office work. I like this kind of working hours. Because ever since my internship, my lifestyle, especially eating and sleeping habits never been better! My lifestyle became so regular and living like some normal person. Unlike during schooling where I eat only whenever I feel hungry, skip meals, eat freaking lot during dinner, or early dinner and night milo, sleep only at am hours and wake up only at noon ugh, when I work I'll have breakfast at 8.30am, lunch at 12pm, dinner at 6.30pm sleep at 11pm and wake up by 730am standard hehe. Unknowingly I became a healthy lifestyle person. I try to keep to such good habits now but erm difficult ah.



Singapore's telecommuncation company is seriously wtffff!! I recently switched my phone service provider to M1 because I wanna get iphone5 which Singtel did not have stock. Now SingTel is asking me to pay them back the rebates that I've received and cant believe I have to pay for those rebate amount which was not even issued to me!!! This M1 is even worse. The bill for the next month has arrived when the month is not even here yet!!! I think its going to be like Starhub! Threatening to cut off your line when you delay any payment. Its not as if its million of dollars I owe! My dad and I like SingTel sometimes because we can delay payment for even up to 3 months hahahaha! Even though I get very irritated because our WIFI at home is down every now and then. But at the very least I dont have to pay upfront for the monthly bill which has not even arrive!! Money now is worth more than in the future. So yes, best to keep in your pocket as long as possible! But aiya still have to tolerate this absurd payment system for 2 years T.T

Sometimes I really regret getting this Iphone. Itunes is %$@#!$%! Most of my songs are not downloaded from itunes store so most of the useful functions dont work. Transferring songs is crazy. There isnt a marking function. Its a freaking selfish phone which doesnt have Bluetooth function. This means I have to download every single thing myself and sync everytime. Such a hassle arghhh!! Whats worse is that Galaxy Note 2 is out!!! Why did my dad and I got the Iphone 5 each???!! If not can go get another Note 2 ;( Most of its special functions are also not too much of use for me... In addition, I have to pay my dad $20 monthly for the freaking expensive 3G data plan. Because my plan used to be $16/month! Now its over $30! Now that the data is capped at 2GB its making life tiresome for me. I have already exceeded 1GB usage on my second week of the month! So I have to remb to switch off my 3G whenever I reach home and use WIFI just in case certain apps secretly uses my 3G. 

So anyway my internship with SC is over! I thought that I will be extremely happy during my last day or work there! But that was not the case laa aiyoo. Was feeling damn she bu de on 17Oct which was my last day seeing my boss! And the feeling got worse on my last day 19 Oct!

Photo with my cute boss Rob! Realise that my boss was not around when I first came and he's not around on my last day either! Was talking to my another boss about this and he said that this is called "Consistent"! -.-
My parents say my boss shuai hahaha


Beach cleaning and BBQ session with colleagues on 12 Oct! Few of us went to sing k after that!:)




















Dont really know what made us laughed so hard
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OH GOSH MY VERY BIG FACE


This is call International. Singapore, Malaysia, China, Indonesia, Philippines, New Zealand, America, Korea, India


Cake from Diana & Han Jing on my last day T.T




















Very friendly Anne always asking me go find boyfriend ahaha. She says that she had 22 boyfriends in the past. She is now married. Meaning her hushand is her 23rd boyfriend omgzxcc.She's another contractor working under my boss. Now that me and ws is no longer around I hope my boss doesnt give her a hard time ahahaha






















Theresa, my fav secretary over there! Love talking to her cos I think she speaks like the way I do!!:) Btw, she's the only Singaporean I met over there!:)



























Haha i die die also want take photo with these two very cute guys before I left.. Srinvas on the left and Abhishek on the right!;) Please kindly ignore my freaking dua tummy;(


























I basically spent the last 2 weeks in the office taking zilian photos of myself with my new phone haha





















Byee my beautiful desk

















My colleague introduced me to this app called Pinterest. There's many pretty stuffs in there!!;)























Wait till i lose 20kg i buy you ok:)





















My first selfmade avocado juice my skin saver!! The taste of it was great on my first attempt!!:) The subsequent ones was... hahahaha omg.. The most recent one the avocado turn black lan diao hahaha wth





















I guess I have not mentioned about putting braces over here! So this was my last photo before braces! Anyways i still dont see any improvement to my teeth yet. Its still the same its been a month alr leh!!;(





















Look at cute Chloe. Oh god my pathetic brows.. its even worse now.. T.T
























MP is starting real soon like next week. Getting quite worried because junjie's group is the same batch as us.  Heard from some ppl that mp is quite tiring cos you have to work even on weekends unlike internship! I've been slacking for tooo long! So im really very worried!! Hope that I can adapt really quickly wish me luck kay;)
Hello im back!

Fiona laoda told me that blogger can track how many ppl viewed my blog and there was like 2 views yestd from US! Is it you jacky can you like freaking email me or smth

Ok Just some update on what im doing now..

Started on my internship already. Better not write here where im working at so I can complain about how bad it is. I seriously hate working with ws guy!!  (a bit too strong the description but thats what I really feel) Even when we only speak a few sentences we end up quarreling. Maybe not quarrel but our conversation is always loud lol. He never gives in to me and gives me black face some days like his pms days like seriously wtf why do i have to tolerate with his mood swings. Sometimes see his face can also make me angry. Actually its most of the time lol.

I believe the girls from my class have the same sentiments as me hahahahah whenever we talked about him nothing good comes out from our mouth hahahahha. Dinner with zixuan and mujie some time back was even more funny! He kept on pestering me saying he wanted to join us and kept calling me (and i cant eat my prataaa peacefully argh) but both of them was giving me the "omg no" face when I told them he wanna join. And yeahh I ended up being the bad person whoo wth. Up till today I think he still thinks that I was the one who dowan to let him join. Even though I clarified with him the next day when he asked about it

So erm, I've worked for.. almost a month?! Started on 9 July Hmm so yeah a few more days to my one month anniversary with the bank.

35 more days left. Must ENDURE!!

Actually i kinda miss school after started working over there. So far I have not found any Singaporean in the department yet argh. And I realise that the the ppl there tend to have lunch with ppl from their own country. So yeah I freaking eat along when ws guy abandon me sometimes. At times some of my colleagues will ask me to join them whenever they bump into me near lunch time without asking me to ask ws guy hahahahha dunno why i feel happy over this. A bit evil uh! But I dont care cos he's more evil towards me. He also felt that the ppl over there dint really like him so he told my class this when they met up. So my class ppl thinks that my colleagues were very friendly to me when in actual fact the situation is not really what they think. I think that they just pity me see me ke lian then invite me.. T.T But i happily eat along sometimes and chope seats with tissue packet like a Singaporean :) Getting used to forever alone according to kaiyiu :) My colleagues always asked if i will want go back to work after i graduate.. I will always reply Hahahah i dont think my boss will need me anymore.. But I was thinking.. NOO

HAAHAHA

So hmm, yestd visited Night Safari with xinjie and ding. Xinjie got her driving license already and I think she drive until quite steady lehh whoo;)

None of my friends think that I can drive hahahahah even if I got driving license they also dun dare seat ba hahhahaha sure bang

Ok la even if i wanna learn driving also not so soon i dun even have a car to drive scarely next time forget.. Just like how I forget how to ride a bike hahahhahaha
 
SEEE This is evidence. I used to own a bike and yes I can cycle ok my parents can be my witness. Went to re-learn cycling some time back with shuying and rachel and I failed hahahaha. And some other things happened now i feel a bit scared to go East Coast Park alr hahhahaha. I failed to re-learn that time i wonder if ding and huang can really successfully teach me cycle heh. But I wonder if that event will even happen in the first place..

So I shun bian dig out other photos..Next time got time will dig out more:D
Lol i was never slim in my whole life until now hahahhaha. I think my bro is much cuter than me. He's got big round eyes with obvious even double eyelid. Whereas I got small eyes, single eyelid when i was younger;( And now.. sometimes one single one double sometimes both single but never both double. Fuuu.
Shape of eyes changes everyday making it freaking hard for me to learn eye make up T.T

Only if im a guy..
Confirm very shuai one;)
Oh just to mention, I digged out old photos is because my dad said that our family went to the zoo tgt when my brother and I were younger! (cos i went to night safari lol) I dont dare to post those photos cos that was the period when my face was hmm.. squarish omgzxc

Ah btw im looking for this bag in this blue.  The exact one Seohyun is carrying or the balenciaga kind also can!! Whoever see this pls inform me tyty;D

















Gonna watch movie i think its "Imperfect" tmr with Chloe Fiona Diana Desiree Leyley tmr after work. Look forward to that but dreading work T.T


Actually if you have met up with me recently you should know im quite crazy over these two songs but they're really nice laa! Must listen kayy!!;D omg as if im endorsing for them lol